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lying in bed.

frowned.

stuck, again

but i shouldn't be.

struggle/dilemma/conflict

lusts/needs

or actually both?

good music draws me in

good movies make me think

good......

.....?

it's certainly not as staight forward as patching A into B and you'll get signal returned to channel C

do i want to be setting up a sennheiser 421 and a AT 4050

or do i want to be singing at it?

somebody give me a cardiotonic.

Talking, laughing, loving, breathing

Fighting, fucking, crying, drinking

Writing, winning, losing, cheating

Kissing, thinking, dreaming.

need to believe that i actually got something to grasp on

...but exactly why am i talking myself into it..?